A Goddess requires a man who wants more from you than just pleasure. Average men rush to have sex with a woman, and expect her body without giving her anything. It’s wise for a woman to stop laying down with men who wont offer a COMMITTMENT to you first, and more importantly, stop thinking sex will MAKE him commit.
When you’re a single mother struggling and your kids are suffering, you gotta take some accountability for who you chose to have a kid with. You chose to have a kid with a man who didn’t truly love you or care about his seeds.
A lot of these average men and even some above average men are walking around looking for something. He doesn’t know what he wants. So let me tell you. He’s looking for a woman that’s going to be so damn phenomenal that he says phuck all those other bishes, this is the one right here. Then he commits to her, wants to take care of her, be in the home of and provide for his wife and kids. He’s looking for the woman that evokes that desire in him.
Until a man wants to provide for all of your needs and make all of your dreams come true, he’s just settling for you.
So many woman, love to brag about being married in order to try to tease single women. I’m never impressed by those types. I look at their man an he never looks all that. He’s just so basic looking man. Most times he also doesn’t provide. A woman will make a whole relationship business off of saying she’s married to TEAM BASIC. That’s not for me. I definitely know how to get a basic man to marry me. I even know how to get a rich man to marry me. I’m only here for my soulmate. That’s who I’m going to marry. My soulmate is rich.
Plus these days does a man really want to send his woman to work to work for another man? Couldn’t ya’ll work on a business together. I’ve seen too many of my clients whose husbands support their business. Those husbands understand that they married a boss chick, and simply flows with her. And they win, cause as a man he provided space for his wife to be her full creative self.
Cause on the other end a lot of women are being taken care of and aren’t creating anything other than babies. I don’t look down on those women. It’s simply not my thing. I love creating profitable business ideas.
All I’m saying is that if you’re a Goddess you need a man with plans to prosper you.
Recently I realized that I’d been unintentionally putting myself last. I was caring about everyone else and their feelings, while making my own unimportant. WHY? Because I know that my own emotions are simply just storylines.
But by doing so I wasn’t fully showing up. Every time you make yourself appear less than to appease other people you block your own light from shining.
It’s quite a process of understanding this.
But once I shifted into notgivingaphuckness, then the question came “Well who am I now?” The answer to that is you are nothing and no one, but everything.
I stopped giving af about all of the unanswered messages in my inbox. I stopped caring about being so kind to men, who weren’t even being super kind to me. I stop giving them loads of empathy for being a basic man.
I stopped focusing on empathy for everyone who comes half azz, and really sunk my heart into my tribe. They go hard. They show up and they try. They desperately search for answers to get the keys out of life.
I’m looking forward to my client calls this week. I enjoy working with people who are actively working on getting past their blocks in order to accomplish dream life.
I channeled a massive download this morning, and instead of getting up to write it like i’m supposed to, I just laid in bed. So now I have to sit here and try to remember what I’m supposed to tell you, and it’s probably going to be a ramble.
Maybe I’ll just keep it short. (as if I could ever write anything short.)
Life goes the way it goes, but I want you to know that men are awesome. Healed men are awesome. If women had access to the men I have access to, they would faint. How do I know this? Because I fainted last night. When I woke up this morning it was actually daylight outside. I’m talking real daylight. Usually I wake up at 3:33 or 4:44 or some particular angel number time. I sometimes avoid looking at the clock cause I already know I’ll see an angel number and know that I need to rise, avoid going back to bed, and deliver the message.
Obviously I stayed in bed today.
Anyway how did I faint? Easy. I had an enchanting conversation with a divine man before I went to bed. More healing came. More of my distortions left. More truths were revealed. I found myself in total surrender once again, with this man. I’ve never witnessed any other man in my life who has brought me to such states. And the man hasn’t even touched me yet. So powerful!
How can I explain this to you?
When a brilliant woman has yet to meet the otherworldly/cosmic delights of deep surrender, she will be unaware of the the true depth of nourishment and rejuvenation which is available to her in THIS life. She may never experience this – until she meets a deeply divine, absolutely brilliant man who is surrendered unto his purpose.
He is like her medicine. Okay scratch the word LIKE. HE IS her medicine. Her rocket fuel. Her shea butter all over body moisturizer that works on the mind too. Her relaxing, rose quartz bubble bath, that softly seduces her skin with pearls of moisture, heals her heart chakra and causes her to re-align and vibrate with love. He’s a lighter to her cigarette, when she doesn’t even smoke. The flames!!! 🔥🔥🔥
And I’m not talking about the phuck boy version that Ashanti ever so beautifully sang about with every fiber of her soul. I’m talking about the real thing.
When I tell you this man is lit. I’m not exaggerating. The way he deals with me is definitely not effortlessly. Cause I’m a lot to deal with and do require a significant amount of brain space. Or at least I was. I shifted during that conversation. I released my self-sabotaging ways I’d picked up on the journey of life, of dealing with non-provider men who didn’t allow my soul to feel safe with them.
The bad habits, became clear, and I let them go.
He handles me with care. It’s like magic. There are no games. It’s such a beautiful thing to experience. My divine feminine feels safe to be her. She feels safe with him. She feels no need to call in her masculine. She’s more than happy to give him a needed break. I could’ve shed a tear. But instead I remain thankful that after my last break-up that I went after my purpose and my money. I didn’t run into another man’s arms to babysit my wounds or deflect blame. I didn’t even go to bitter land. Instead, I went in search of the answers to life.
Had I not done that I’m quite sure I wouldn’t even have the honor of having such access to the deep recessions of such a man. He wouldn’t have been able to see me past my messy drama blog that I kept up. (Don’t front like that blog wasn’t hella entertaining with some doses of enlightened education wrapped in it. I laced the heck outta my followers and awakened their consciousness.) Or maybe he wouldn’t have been able to access me in that space that I was in. I would’ve been too preoccupied. Cause he didn’t come in the usual loud package that gets my attention. But thankfully I have the gift of discernment.
Anyway, this King said to me “Kissy, this is what your problem is.” I took it all in, absorbed, and it was all true. I could trust what he told me because I respect his life choices and I respect the way he communicates with me, and shows that he cares.
Men in the past attempted to tell me that I was less than perfect. But I was unable to listen to them. I couldn’t receive it. How am I supposed to listen to a man who still plays video games instead of being on his purpose? I out performed him before I woke up in the morning. I made his weekly paycheck in my sleep every night. Some days when he would royally piss me the phuck off, I would make his entire monthly paycheck in a 6-hour-day, and he knew he caused it…
How am I to listen to a man who tells me I’m not perfect, but he proudly dated a ratchet with bra straps popping out everywhere, and thinks a woman who lives with her mom is better than me, because she has a degree?
How could I listen to a man who actually called ME stupid. I mean come on now, I’m brilliant af! I can’t listen to a man who doesn’t know what a valuable woman is in the first place. I can’t listen to a man who doesn’t value himself. I can’t listen to a man who doesn’t respond when I speak to the King in him. I couldn’t listen to the witness of men who I outperformed through the sheer will of grit. I definitely can’t listen to a man who thinks any woman is above me. I don’t have a compete switch. Instead I have a “let him go and be with her switch.”
In my mind, I AM Kissy mthfkn Denise – THE Masterpiece – THE Goddess of Love & Motivation – 7 Figure Dream Activator. I help high performing, wealth conscious, spiritual life coaches and entrepreneurs align with the soul’s true purpose, heal, remove blocks, turbo charge their confidence and develop a divine strategy to magnetically attract and manifest the life of their dreams inside business and relationships. I’m an expert in the arts of influence and magnetism. Add my social media skills and my writing, and yeah, I’m the perfect coach for multi-passion geniuses who too have a million and one skills. There’s nothing that anyone can say to me, and I most times will only accept help from the best of them.
I’m the sh*t, and I know it. So if a man doesn’t, I won’t lie – I think he’s dumb. I think he’s real dumb. I be waving my hand in front of his face, rocking and rhyming like “You’re blind. You can’t see. You need to wear some glasses like D.M.C.”
Yeah, I be clowning these dudes. Or at least I used to. I attract a different kind of man now. I attract God Kings. These men make me way higher than Bobby and Whitney got off crack. The highs they induce are like no other. I’m telling you. It’s like where have these men been all of my life? But I have no one to blame but me. It was me who wasn’t showing all the way up. I tried with those other men though. I really did. I tried my best. But who cares about the previous men. They weren’t for me. It I didn’t realize that by the way they treated me, I definitely realize that now. Even more, I was too powerful and too abundant for those men. They didn’t know what to do with me. They tried, based on societies rules. I don’t live by those rules. I live by God’s rules. God is love.
Anyway, long story short, I’m so glad that I did not take my light and love, wanna be healed, but wounded azz, to go run off into the arms of some man, bringing all that unhealed baggage with me, while thinking that I was healed. Surely I would’ve once again wondered why I found myself dumping yet another man.
Lord have mercy on these girls who haven’t learned to take a break from dating, and look within. 🙏 And for you brilliant women, Sis, it’s going to take a hellafied man to deal with you and heal you. Every man ain’t cut out for the job. But he’s definitely out there. Lots of them are.
I now know I’m officially over being a wounded mate. I release control. I am in the space to call in my soulmate. And you know what? For the first time in a long time, I’m grounded again. I’m back on earth and okay with trusting myself again. I released the pain body from my wound and reconnected with source again. I feel like my life is real again. Because THIS is the way my life was always supposed to be.
I also understand my purpose even more clearly now and why my first book that I’m about to publish – is so important to the world. I know it’s going to heal, change the lives of millions of women and raise consciousness. I know that beautiful, brilliant, genius-level, heart-centered, wealth conscious, boss chicks need me to show up loud in the world so that they may find me.
You know why? Because we’re all connected. Nobody else knows how to heal boss Goddesses the way I do. People don’t even understand them. But I do. Cause I had to do the super hard work to heal myself, to walk into my purpose, walk through the valley of the fire, through the shadow of death, decide to stop settling for less, and be bold and brave enough to call in Kings. I won’t lie. It brought me to tears many times, but these Kings put me on their back and kept me going. They didn’t let me do it by myself.
I had to do immense amounts of work on myself to vibrate at their level and hold space for them. I had to be willing to transform myself and heal my own karma drama. I had to do the spiritual work so that my inner beauty would speak louder than my outer. I did the work to be able to enchant, powerful, divine men with authenticity and be able to keep their attention. Such men aren’t easy for the average woman to come by. Purposed men have loads of women throwing panties at them and falling at their feet when they speak. Keeping their attention is like 1 in a million.
But you know what? My tribe deserves that kind of man. Because you too are one in a million. It’s the perfect match.
If you are reading this blog, man or woman, and you seem to have achieved great success in every area of life, except the relationship department, you need Kissy in your life.
Any of my clients will also tell you that you need me. You need me to heal you with love, and get you in full alignment with your soul’s mate. It’s what you came to earth to do. All those other men simply agitated TF out of you.
This journey of re-discovering myself, healing and birthing my purpose has been one of the most difficult, most enlightening experiences of my life.
However, I do know there shall be no more sorrow or crying. Neither shall there be anymore pain. For the former things have passed away. I’ve entered heaven.
But back to my purpose. I know love is my purpose because it caused me A LOT of pain in the past.
Pain from self-sacrificial love has the ability to reside in the deepest parts of your mind, body, heart and soul.
But your spirit will always bring joy and sunshine into the world. Real love is selfless and free from fear. It pours itself out upon the object of its affection. Without demanding any return. It’s joy is in the joy of giving. Love is God in manifestation, and the strongest magnetic force in the Universe.
Pure, unselfish love, draws to itself it’s own. It does not need to seek or demand. Scarcely anyone has the faintest conception of real love.
Humans are selfish and fearful in their affections, thereby losing the thing they love. Therefore by loving with God-like intent will also get you hurt on this earth.
Give a perfect love and you will receive a perfect love. Therefore bless those who take their love away from you.
That’s how this thing called love works. I know because it’s how I manifest so much love into my life. I simply vibrate on the frequency of love. My vibrations go out into the universe and pull in those who will immediately or after a while fall in love with me. But sometimes it brought me a broken soul who I nursed back into remembrance of self; by pouring love into him or them.
To heal those men I became a siren of emotional seduction. I’m already packaged in seduction. I get them to think they are falling in love with me. Not intentionally, but the way I pour love into them makes them feel like they are in love. They actually are not. They’d be able to see me as my highest self if they truly loved me. Not being able to see me beyond the physical is my sign of knowing he’s not the one.
Regardless I did what it took to soften their heart and to help them feel again. I healed them and took in the pain of the way they may have treated me during the healing. Hurt people hurt people and rarely ever realize it. Most times they think they are treating others great, because in a way they do attempt to love from their own love language.
Sometimes the pain I felt simply came from watching their behavior and masked pain behind the huge walls they put up… Walls they felt keep them safe. Then when the healing is done, they wondered why I wanted to go my separate way. I tend to note that the healing is done because their behavior towards me gets worse… They see me as less. I’ve seen the storyline enough times.
I like to see people happy. But I’ll never be interested in basic love. And seeing how most people don’t know what real love is, the love they offer is basic, due to their habits that they could easily change. I could show anyone how to love, but chances are, they will only listen if they pay me. People don’t want to be told that their habits cause dysfunctional relationships. They want to listen to what society has taught them. They want to listen to dating experts who aren’t enlightened.
So when you say “Hey. This is the way to love over here. If you follow me you’ll experience the deepest love you’ve ever felt in your life.” Even though they’ve felt tinges of it, because I’ve encircled them with love; they don’t want to come. They want to continue doing things their way.
Telling them that there is a better way is looked at as judgement, as not being good enough, as being unwanted. They don’t realize the only thing you seek is to show them the miracle of love. Nor did they have any interest in giving you what you wanted. They start deflecting.
So they’re angry at you. Especially more now, because you’ve awakened them and showed them their powers. You’ve shown them their worth. I’ve shown them their Kingship, so they see less of the Queen in me. The fact that they’ve been healed by a Goddess, wooooo chile. They are miles away from registering that fact.
I’ve increased all of the good feelings they have about themselves. I’ve lessoned the pain the other girls inflicted upon them. They inflicted pain on one another and have no clue. Cause both see it their way. So then that pain turns towards me when the non-romance they offer isn’t good enough. It’s all my fault and I’m pushing them away they say. While at the same time telling me they don’t need to be taught how to love.
So they rip at me and try to tear me down. They try to find ways that I’m imperfect, instead realizing I’ve given them the perfect love. I simply tried to remove myself from the situation afterwards, because I no longer wanted to experience the pain of loving them. How can I when I know that love is not hard?
The way most people love these days requires you to totally toss your ego in the trash and have absolutely no expectations. You gotta go with the bumps and bruises and let them drag you into the pain. They also don’t wan’t you being a mirror reflecting their dysfunctional ways back to them. If they ignore you two days cause they are busy, then you ignore them a week cause you feel like being busy being happy in your own world, you are now the meanest, most disrespectful person in the world. Yet they have every excuse in the book of why they did it to you, time and time again. The behavior was right for them but not right for you to do. In most cases what happens instead is cheating on both ends.
That’s what most humans call love. They think love is inflicting pain on someone and seeing how much pain a person can take. They then start to believe you love them if you keep taking the pain they throw your way. If you have any self-worth and say you deserve better, they say you’re tripping. They remind you that no human is perfect.
People don’t realize that love is actually one of the easiest things in the world. It is humans not tossing their ego to the side in the name of fearlessly walking all the way INTO love and being love.
Instead, FEAR is the program they are running. Fear of not being good enough.
And as long as real love is not super important to them, the truth is they will never be able to keep an enlightened soul. I know this. I don’t even waste my time anymore.
Meanwhile they continue the program that prevents them from having authentic relationships with people.
It prevents them from having authentic relationships with self.
It prevents them from being truly connected with their body.
It forces them to become numb in order to survive. I’ve experienced this numbness a few times. I’ll sit in it for a little while, then I’ll heal myself of it. I never want to walk around numb like most humans. It’s boring.
Even though they don’t cry, and don’t experience the hurt that I have. I would still rather experience love time and time again.
Their fears and wanting to continue to do things their way forces them to disconnect mentally, emotionally and physically.
They end up in relationships that lack real love, because both are still running the same basic program.
They begin to distrust the very people who are there to protect and nurture them. They begin to distrust anyone who claims to love them.
They spend a lot of time sabotaging relationships, believing it’s all on the other person. Then they get used to not truly feeling love, and settling for what they think love is.
Yet never truly feeling the bliss of being fully loved internally and externally. To stop this, you have to make a conscious decision to go back into the dark and find yourself. Each time my heart got broke I went back into the darkness and found myself. Each time I improved my self-worth by becoming more value. But that left more shadow work.
Your real worth is your birthright. You are worthy and deserving of love just by being born. Add that to my value as a human being and heck no, I can’t just hand myself to any man who doesn’t understand the value of love. That’s a waste of my time. Time that they will only use to move onto the next person, to feel vindicated over their own destructive behavior in relationships.
And maybe moving on is better for them afterall. It has to be easier with another person who also doesn’t know what real love is, so dysfunction and basic is normal to them. People often take better care of and invest more into their pets then they do into their relationships… Pets return back unconditional love, cause as long as you feed them and don’t hit them, they are good.
You have to let go of the need to punish the people who hurt you.
You have to forgive people who probably will never acknowledge the pain they have caused you. After all those people never asked you to love them. Neither did they ask you to sacrifice yourself and be in pain for them. Just like a mother gives love to her kids, give your love to people with no regrets once it’s done. But don’t overgive without being aware of the potential fallback
You have to learn to love the parts of yourself that still hurt.
You have to set yourself free. No one else is going to do it for you.
Then you gotta get up and love again. Because love is all there is. If you seek it, you will eventually find it. If you give a perfect love, it will be returned to you.
A lot of men, you want this amazing azz woman. But the truth is at your core, you really don’t know how to be an amazing azz man. You don’t know how to be a man she can be proud of. Mostly due to your behavior. But you know you’re fully capable of being such a man. It’s not even that you haven’t tried. You tried with the wrong one.
What’s stopping you is that you blame everything on women, but very little blame on yourself. Half of your problems come from you falling in love with a basic bish who dogged you out. She blinded you… You no longer know what to focus on. You thought she was a baddie, but chances are if you stand her next to me, she’ll be invisible. She was only a baddie to you, because she showed signs of not wanting you. She fooled you.
You say you want a good woman, and I keep telling you these super beautiful, brilliant boss chicks, are the good women your heart desires. But each time, you get her confused with the brains of an instagram model.
Now you’re like “I’ve been through so much.” You’re too scared and too tired to do what it takes to get a high value woman. Where is your strength at bro? Are you really going to let a basic bish drain you for the best of you? Even worse, due to you being used to basic bishes, you don’t know how to treat an actual good woman on the level you seek. You now think everything is about you. You’ve picked up her selfish traits. You’re always looking to see you can receive, instead of what you can put into her.
So now your dysfunctional, often basic, unexciting behavior, bores the sh*t out of amazing women. Back you go with the rest of the fish who think they are the sh*t. Looking for something that you don’t even have the sense to see. You see what you let that girl do to you?
It’s all because you keep allowing fear to run your storyline. She turned you into a scared little boy who believes he has no control. That he’ll never find what he wants. Aren’t you tired of that story already? Meanwhile, the men who are 1/12 of your worth, have already moved on and found a new one.
You’re hurt, you know your value. But what good is all of that value if you’re just going to walk around by yourself, without a Queen? You’re supposed to be King. It’s who you were called to be. Somehow you forgot, cause that girl dimmed your light.
You should also know the woman is God. You can not live without her. The sooner you realize that, the sooner you’ll get your act together.
If you can’t let go of your ego personality, the awareness, nurture and companionship you seek will be stymied and held back.
But if you let go, and let God, the celestial wind will bring divine love in.
Maybe it’s time that you come up with a new plan. I can help you with that. It’s time to truly heal, and get the amazing, compassionate woman that you deserve.
Telling someone that “It’s not about what you’re doing, it’s about who you’re being,” is really good advice. But it’s also unhelpful as phuck. Because the only people that understand it are the people who finally decided to BE and realized how things just now show up, and they wonder what took them so freaking long to finally get it.
Free advice is really good, but if you don’t have the inside knowledge as to what that person deeply means, you may find yourself even more further confused.
I used to feel frustrated as if I didn’t know anything, as if I needed to learn more new words in order to speak light and love. Then I simply stopped caring, cause I realize something. People need to hear things in plain English. Then I also realize that when you write things in plain English sometimes people think they have all the keys and that they can do it all on their own, so that may kind of throw them off too.
Then sometimes I’m on Facebook and I’m kind of bored from watching this person copy me and that person copy me, while never clicking like. Which is why now I understand why coaches drop hints in code. If you don’t you feel like you’re simply showing up, not getting paid, while providing free content like most influencers. You can be, be, be all you want to, but without the right strategy you will not get paid.
So when you read something from someone, understand you’re only getting one part. The rest goes to their paying clients. Who show up because they finally decided to BE, on top of taking aligned ACTION.
I need to start doing video more often, and I will. But what my journey of walking away from my 6 figure gossip/crime blog taught me is that writing is my gift. It’s the gift that God bestowed me with and it’s my most comfortable form of communication with your soul. It’s the tool I use to relay the message that God wants me to relay on a day to day basis.
I relay the message with love. This week has been a major week for me in terms of shifting and really processing into the form of where I can just BE.
I’ve awakened from another period where I’ve put my whole soul into work and looked up to where I’m skinny mini. Thankfully this is the last time I’ll ever do that, because I get it now. It – The way this process of completion of new creation goes. The process of birthing a new business, and learning new habits and new thought processes.
Yesterday I was talking to a friend online and we talked about how last year around this time is when we first had a deep conversation. We’d been casual acquaintances online for years, but never truly talked. Then one day we had a phone conversation and deeply connected. At the time we were both recently broken up from relationships where we felt like we’d put our heart and soul into people and maybe they wronged us. But we had no ill feelings towards them. We took the pain and laid it on the alter with God. Many of our conversations at that point would be about God. In fact he introduced me to Bishop Dale Bronner.
Anyway, yesterday he was showing me the new girls he’s dating and talking about how much they fed into him. He’s getting exactly what he deserves. In his past, women definitely didn’t appreciate him and he’s one of the dopest men I’ve met thus far. 7 Figures, entrepreneur, fit, dresses nice, beautiful spirit, nice looking, well dressed, and treats women like Queens. In fact when he inboxes me he usually says “Hey Queen.”
Bro rolls around in a Maserati… Real humble though. Anyway, he said to me “I don’t regret anything. I wouldn’t change any of it.”
It’s so beautiful to get to the point where you have no regrets. Cause you’ve been molded for your purpose, you laid it all out on the line, healed and walked into a better life. A better life than you may have realized you could’ve had.
How often we sit in relationships where we aren’t being fully loved or appreciated, with people who may be in alignment with us, but we’re not in alignment with them, because they simply don’t think big enough.
People only appreciate or recognize excellence when it’s in alignment with what they desire.
When you meet someone and they are head over heels for you, it’s because you are either exactly what they desire or in alignment with what they desire, so they appreciate now seeing the manifestation of that desire.
When you meet people and they are not excited by you, not impressed by you, after getting to know you, it’s because you’re not in alignment with what they desire.
People only recognize excellence when it’s in alignment with what they desire. Like some people saw Oprah and Beyonce coming, others couldn’t see until they were already on top.
So you have to detach from who can see you and who can’t see you. It’s not up to you, to make people see you. It’s up to you to simply BE and allow those who see you, to learn from you.
The new women he dates can see him. They chase him. Throwing the panties left and right. Mostly cause he stopped hiding and dimming his light. When I first started talking to him I noticed the dimmer switch and told him to turn the light all the way up. He turned it half way up, and is slowly letting the world see him.
He and I started talking after I started going through my own healing process and flicking my own switch from dimmer mode to bright mode.
Even with 700,000 social media followers, I had been dimming my light, playing the background on a blog, not trying to be too noticed personally because I felt that people would be jealous. It was easier to keep the money flowing in, behind the scenes. Thank God I opted out of that. I went to start a new fanpage and with 7,000 followers on that page, I’m happy to say that I get to be my beautiful, positive self and speak with the love and kindness of my soul.
We’ve gone through the process of gaining our freedom. But boy was that process painful.
It’s actually weird now when I talk to men. I’m so used to the 3D realm that I know what men are going to do 10 paces ahead before they do it. I get bored with such men. But thanks to my light coming up I attract so many amazing 5D men who feed life and love into me. That’s fun.
I’ve also been celibate for a year. Not intentionally. It just happened like that because I stopped dating.
Anyway, I look forward to the day when I can say that I have no regrets and wouldn’t change anything. I’ve heard other people say that before, and have told them “Dude, you should have some regrets. If you did, maybe you’d do better.” Maybe I was wrong for saying that, but at the same time, regretting some of my past decisions is what stopped me from making them again. It’s what made me stick with the process of awakening this time and not go back to my old ways.
I’ve learned that God uses us and chooses us for something bigger than us. I’m well aware that my life is so much bigger than me. I inspire people all around the world, simply by being me. Can you imagine, just waking up in the morning and saying whatever you feel like saying, and that sh*t being inspiring af to thousands of people within hours? That’s pretty much my life. But it’s never quite registered in my mind. Cause I’m just being me. I get messages daily of people telling me how much they love me and how much I inspire them. I literally have to work on receiving that love, cause I kind of walk around detached from the world, just being me… That really makes me understand how God works through me, as a vessel to relay messages. I don’t need any special training to relay that message. I seriously don’t even have to think much. It just flows. Much like this blog.
People often ask me how I manage to write so much, every day. It takes no effort, other than sitting down and making time to do it. When you’re operating in purpose, it’s almost effortless. That’s how your gifting works.
Now this week major changes are coming. They’ve started already, I’m walking into something big. It makes me hold back tears, I can feel the queasiness mounting in my stomach that wants to delay it some more, a little longer it says, WAIT, the old me still trying to hold on, not wanting to let go of the habits and the mindset that held me in this space. The space where I now know that all it takes is a decision to let go, to walk forward in acceptance. Acceptance of what’s already yours, what’s already been written.
And you should damn well accept it, because this time you know you’ve earned it. You paid the price. You’ve learned from the losses, the failures, the glory and everything else. You’ve seen God break you down to pieces, so that you learn to depend on him and know that it is he who guides you and gives you everything you got, and at the same damn time knowing I AM. Now you’re walking in your power and mere mortals don’t understand you at all. But I paid the price to be the boss, in more than one way. Most people would’ve never made it through what I’ve been through. Nor would they have been willing to walk away from a good life of making money, to jump off a cliff into the unknown; with full belief that the parachute would perform perfectly to make your jump smooth… It’s funny, at first it’s scary as hell. You’re fighting and you’re flailing and you’re like yoooooo WTF is going on???!!!I don’t even curse, but this process though… Then one day you finally let go and surrender, and suddenly it all starts to smooth out, and you laugh at how long it took you to get it.
But like I was saying, your destiny has a price. You gotta pay the price for your destiny, and very seldom is that price money. The price for the walk on the cross to pursue your purpose is pain. Most people simply aren’t willing to go through the pain of change…
The pain of your life is training you up to walk in your purpose and live the life of your dreams. The dream is the guiding light like a worm on a hook. It’s planted in you as bait, to make you walk and do the work… Cause you grow to know that the dream is who you are. Nothing else will do. There is no point of pretending that less will do.
That means you can’t play victim to growing up poor, to abusive relationships, to the old storylines, to such and such did this and that to me… None of it matters anymore.
God will break you all the way down to let you know that he is real. I often talk alot of sh*t, and I’m hella confident, but only cause I was born for this. I was bred for this life. I was called for this. In my next season I will be fully prepared. I’ve been taught grace, I’ve been taught submission, I’ve been taught forgiveness. I’ve been taught how to live from my heart.
Even in love, I’ve been taught how it’s all a reflection of you to help you heal, and to appreciate those moments for what it was and how it inspired you to grow.
I think about the process I’ve been through over the past year and just my whole life, and unless you’ve been through your own journey you can’t understand how good it feels to reach the point where you feel like you are ENOUGH. Where you know you’re enough for the mission that God called you to walk on. Where you’re just walking it and you realize that nope, you have no idea where you’ll end up at, but in a way you know where you’re going, cause you’re a Prophetess and you can see your future and the future of others. And you’re a master manifester and you now know exactly how to get what you want, if you’ll simply stay disciplined to the new habits.
HOUSTON (FOX 26) – A new study shows as many as one third of heterosexual women only date guys because of the free food! Two new studies show a portion of women admit to making so-called “foodie calls” when money is tight. 23 percent of women admitted to dating for free meals. In a second study, 33 percent of women admitted to it. Researchers say the women admitted they were not interested in the guys, just the free food.
This is nothing new. It’s very true. But here is why women do it. Women want romance and they want a man who will spoil them. Most men won’t spoil her, so she has no desire to go out on dates with most men. But she will go in order to get out the house, be around masculine energy and be treated like a lady.
What no one realizes is this epidemic is caused by men playing games or not knowing what they want. She knows that half the time the man isn’t looking for love. He’s simply seeking free sex, to play games, to date 10 women at a time, to not take her serious and totally waste her time. So women have very little expectations, and go out just to go out and get dressed nice. The lower a woman lowers her expectations, the less attractive average men become to her. Because her heart still wants what it wants.
On the other hand you have women like me who will turn down dates left and right, because I’d rather buy my own food than to hang out with a random man who doesn’t know what he wants.
That way when I do go out on dates it’s with a gentleman who appears to know what he wants and appreciates my time, presence and energy. Therefore I’m able to appreciate his time also.
Pain from self-sacrificial love has the ability to reside in the deepest parts of your mind, body, heart and soul. 
Pure, unselfish love, draws to itself it’s own. It does not need to seek or demand. Scarcely anyone has the faintest conception of real love. 
