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People Reports: The fiancée of late rapper DMX is still grappling with his loss nearly a year after his tragic death.
Desiree Lindstrom, who shared 5-year-old son Exodus with the musician, opened up about her grief during a recent podcast appearance, 11 months after DMX died on April 9 following a heart attack.
“I haven’t moved on. It’s hard, you know?” Lindstrom said through tears on the It’s Tricky with Raquel Harper podcast. “It’s really hard. I just take it minute by minute. Some people say you could take it day by day, but it’s second by second. My life changed so fast [in] the blink of an eye.”
Lindstrom said that since losing the “Party Up (Up in Here)” rapper (real name Earl Simmons), she’s been focused on herself and her son, and is currently in school to be an esthetician.
“I just want to build myself to be a great mother to Exodus,” she said. “I want him to see that he has a strong mother that can stand up on her own, and I’m just trusting in God through the process. I go up and down with emotions. I have to really force myself to keep it moving, keep going.”
Still, some moments are harder than others for her, especially holidays, which she said get “lonely,” as the rapper “was my family.”
Lindstrom noted that she often leans on her son — who is “stable” as he continues to battle stage-three kidney disease — and finds comfort in his positivity outlook and strength.
“Sometimes it’s hard, just looking at him. He has so many different qualities of his father,” she explained. “So when I do shed a tear, he’ll be like, ‘Mommy, are you okay? And I’ll say, ‘You just did something that was like your father.’ And he’s like, ‘Mommy, it’s okay, Daddy’s with God, he’s watching over us. He’s our angel.’ I just thank God that he gave me a son that is like that. He’s just like his dad.”
According to host Harper, Lindstrom and DMX were together for 10 years — and despite the fact that they never had the chance to actually tie the knot, lived as if they were married.
“One thing that Earl taught me was, who gives a f— what people got to say about you? I knew that he loved me, he knew that I loved him,” said Lindstrom, who said she was still “not even thinking” about dating again. “I feel like we [were] married. A piece of paper ain’t s—. Our love was real. He was there for me, I was there for him, and people know what the f— it was, period.”
Shortly after DMX’s death, Lindstrom got a tattoo in his memory reading “Dog Love,” as well as an “X” in the same font that the rapper used to stylize his name.
She also paid tribute to her late love on Valentine’s Day, writing on Instagram: “I know you earned your wings baby. I pray that you are at peace. Missing you too much this Valentine’s Day.”
This is what any woman gets who allows a man to convince her that a piece of paper doesn’t mean anything. Now she’s about to go to college and work hard, just to date another man who won’t marry her, and chances are won’t provide for her either. But at least she got to experience real love, without the death benefits.
Meanwhile Kenya Moore is out here crying, talking about she wasn’t seen in her marriage, and going through a divorce from a man who used her up and wants to take half of her house. Kenya was literally Miss USA and was/is one of the most beautiful black women on the planet.
It’s amazing how many lies black women feed into at their own detriment. And if you tell them the truth, the ignorant ones will get louder to drown you out and tell you how wrong you are for telling women to have standards and not settling for peanuts.
And people have the nerve to scream at people like me when we help women find their worth. SMH
I hope everyone else, peeps game and changes your mindset. This game called life requires SELF-LOVE and SELF-PRESERVATION. Something an unconscious person knows nothing about.
If you don’t tell a man what you want, and refuse to allow him access to you, unless he meets that standard, you won’t get what’s yours.